26A Poem by Max Whipple IIIStagnation treadmillso much love and pain and apathy I don't think I can find it in me overwhelming and smothering and suffocating listless stalling denial of every passing moment no questions and no answers and no reason I can't compare what I don't understand I can't live something that I cannot feel I cannot feel anything but everything at once assaulting my mind and halting my progress ..to an end or a beginning or nothing carelessness intertwined with self doubt and self awareness the mirror doesn't reflect the shell or the core but the state the state doesn't reveal the self only the lie and the result avoid my gaze and forget ..and sleep ..and die get passed by and removed ..from my own plans and the empty vision of a future or failure the future of a failure in motion powerless to acknowledge my own power to dictate the terms of my destruction ..or resurrection prevailing weakness entrenched closely within it comforts as it kills forecasting perceptions of invalidation acceptance of inevitability a mirage of futility psychosomatic internalization of defeat admission uncovers a red herring the plot holes of a story unwritten avoid my life and forget ..and sleep ..and die © 2013 Max Whipple III |
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Added on February 14, 2013 Last Updated on February 14, 2013 Tags: depression, self-destruction, denial, sadness, identity AuthorMax Whipple IIIChandler, AZAboutI am a musician and aspiring poet/writer. I'm in school to get my BA in English. I hope to one day have something published somewhere significant, but right now it's just a hobby and much needed creat.. more..Writing
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