Keymaster

Self destruction, denial and depression

  I creep along the bottom of my cell

the cell in which I am trapped

the cell for which I have the key

the key that's trapped inside myself

tearing myself open to grab it

destroying what I am not

..to rebuild as I am

is it sanity to accept my insanity

..or insane to deny the obvious

when I wrote this test did I have the answers

..or did I feign the success to forget the truth

the same songs play

the same memories burn

who was I when I was not me

when I was not this

when I thought I knew

can I progress through regression

can I regress to move on

 I can't go back

  I can't look forward

  I can only look back and move forward

trying to learn what I've unlearned

trying to practice what I can't preach

because I don't know

..and I can't see

who I am or where I'll be

only what I am not and where I am

inside my cell

the cell in which I am trapped

the cell for which I have the key

a key I've lost inside myself

guarding myself to hide it

destroying what I am

to rebuild as I am not