At Bay

Keeping love from destroying yourself.

I'm alive, in both the flesh and my never-ceasing mind
Yet my ragged gasps break through the slow thrum of life
revealing my weakness in you id not thought to find
Yet deep and true has it plunged the jagged knife

Every picture is the same, a voiceless, burning, tearing regret
A wave of jealousy threatening to rip me from my morale fibre
Yet even if I knew then what I know now, id not change that we met
Idle thoughts of a heart recovering, blatantly making me a liar

Though I had prayed to hope that my darkest days lay behind me
It would seem that those prayers were wished against deaf ears
The unfairness of life stinging through the tears I refuse to believe
To become the monster, of bitter regret and alone, my greatest fear

I am the unstoppable force, as you are the immovable object
Destined to be intertwined, yet seperate in the worst of ways
Destiny is not my ruler however, and I long for the slightest defect
Barely keeping myself whole, barely keeping love at bay