Feelings Suck

This is it...
are you happy now?
My breaking point, my snap, my complete and utter frustration.
Lord!!
HELP ME!!
People turn their backs. aviod or just don't care at all.

Anger, fear, selfishness, discontent, hopelessness...
all these things I feel make no sense??
He's a jerk, he's lazy, she doesn't want me here...
I don't want me here...

Feelings suck.
Tomorrow, who knows?
It'll be worse, better or the same.
One of three...
But will I let it control me?
Will I let it consume me?
Change my plans, my dreams, my life
just because of it?

This is me stoping, pausing everything
God, what do you want??
Sometimes I find it so incredably hard to even ask you that...
what if it's not "the right answer"
What if it's not what I want??

Please! Change my heart oh God, and renew a right spirit within me.
Take all these fleshly feelings and evil thoughts that consume me
and help me to always seek Your will and Your desires!
Even when I don't want to.
Even when people fail me, for I know you never will.

Thank You for listening...

I honestly feel better now...

Cause now, it's in Your Hands!!

Love Always and With All of My Comforted Heart,

 

Molly.