Justifying a Necessary Paradigm Shift

April 4th, 2004

You don't believe I am capable of change

You consistently compare the past to all present situations

You don't believe I know what sorry or forgiveness truly is

You hear and read the words I write and say, not realizing the message my heart is trying to convey

You don't realize the importance to my life you are 

You don't see that I am new - I thought that I was all alone here in this new place, but you were here at times

You  don't believe in my humility, humbleness, meekness, or egolessness 

You don't believe I am capable of letting down my protective hedge and expressing the true feelings I have

You allow other's downfalls to negatively affect your happiness 

Your awareness and desire to change other's lives for the positive, causes you to become stressed often

You have rude ways of causing me to not finishing expressing myself

You do not love me

You analyze me without intentions of helping me

You are not honest wit me

You do not love me

You do not love me

You do not love me

Love is honest.

You say I am not open with you, yet now you close yourself from me

I fear no pain and only desire your happiness

The pain in my life is the pain I see in you 

The walls you have constructed after countless disappointments, and being hurt by others - along with my walls, are the separators between us

To survive and become a happy companionship, or be of any true benefit to others, we must tear down the walls between us

When the arrows fly, we will let them pass right through us

 

Author's Note

Bit of a downer - straight from an old journal during very sad and critical life events

Reviews

[Tai Chi Italy]

A good rant is always beneficial to look back on, Matter! we writers often do this to try and separate the emotions (define them) in order to understand and move forward. You describe the fine line between love and hate that most relationships exist upon! That's the thing about love, it keeps you on it and off it, simultaneously (The Line). The problem is, that truth to us, is someone else's false hood! You just have to work it out, or walk away and start again on a fresh line with less tension!