Slow Death by LoveA Story by Lyncoln (Lync) PearFrom the top of her bleached head to the bottom of her perfectly manicured toes, she had a burning desire that was ever present.From the
top of her bleached head to the bottom of her perfectly manicured toes, she had
a burning desire that was ever present. The need
to be wanted, to be cared for, to be unconditionally loved and to love in
return. When this ache flares up to the point of being unbearable, she makes
the treacherous decision to revisit the demons that she’s sworn to have left in
the past. Slipping
out into the darkness of the night she begins to be able to breathe again,
knowing her high is near. She
inhales deeply and allows the frigid air to pierce her lungs. This feeling of a
thousand daggers temporarily relocates the pain she has been burdening in her
heart. She
catches sight of his tail lights. Her breath hitches and the numb begins to
overtake her body. She slides into the front seat and is met by his hungry
bloodshot eyes. "You’re drunk.” “You’re
high.” Pulling
into his driveway, a feeling of twisted nostalgia washed over her. Her
brightest and her horrifically darkest moments all rush back. They walk just
close enough to smell each other’s desperation but never close enough to touch.
Just as
the door clicks shut he pushes her hard against the wall and grabs a fistful of
hair so hard tears begin to prick the corners of her eyes. She lets them roll
back into her head and waits until it’s over. Afterward
she pulls on her t-shirt and joins him on the couch. They drink and hit and
then she follows him back out to his car. She leans her head against the cool
window and waits for the guilt to sink in. She tip toes into her dark house and
peels off her clothes, covered in shame. She sits
on the edge of her bed in her pink, clean, perfect room and for the first time
all night lets the tears spill onto her cheeks. Her silent sobs racking her
body. A marquee of self-hatred runs on loop in her mind. She is coming down
from a high so addictive and so wrong that is physically consumes her every
day. She
wakes in the morning, showers and dresses. She joins her roommates for a hot
breakfast. They all laugh and joke, delighted that it’s Friday. Her smile never
falters, but if anyone cared to meet her eyes they would see the torment. Dead,
unfocused, staring out the window at the spot where his tail lights were. © 2014 Lyncoln (Lync) PearAuthor's Note
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1 Review Added on February 17, 2014 Last Updated on February 17, 2014 Tags: non-fiction, story, short story, high, love, personal AuthorLyncoln (Lync) PearILAboutA 22-year old college senior who's first and only love in life is the very act of writing. I am too scared to share some of my most meaningful pieces with friends and family so I put them out ther.. more..Writing
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