Impossible to Please

I have never felt
And feeling doesn't know me.
The cards I was dealt
Are worthless, blank and empty.
Untouched by the color of love
I stand inside my house of cards,
Unsure if I'm below or above,
Protected from knowing by white-out guards.
I am cold and soulless,
Hollow and rotten and dead
From the talons of my toes
To the horns on my head
And I thank God
Death came when it did.
I don't think I'd survive
The lifelessness I lead
If I were still alive.
Floating through my blank space
Are scribbled lines of questioning,
My one and only change of pace;
Am I dead,
Hollow,
Numb,
Heartless,
Imaginary,
Or just insane?
The barriers have fallen
Away from my brain
And now I don't know
What's real or fake,
If it actually happened
Or if I was even awake.
I can't remember my memories
And daydreams are getting believed.
Maybe this empty fog is for my sake
But somehow, I'm not relieved.

Reviews

[RAOrourke]

Untouched by the color of love ....such a wonderful poem. This really pulled me in and I felt such emotion evoked in me as I read it. Well done.

[anne]

I can understand.....sometimes its difficult...:))

[Ashira Macy]

I know what you mean, sometimes it is difficult to allow yourself to feel, for fear of being hurt.

[Sindu]

I can't remember my memories
And daydreams are getting believed..

I can relate. It scares me when I lose time and pace of things doing this..
Interesting read!

[Pryde Foltz]

Floating through my blank space
Are scribbled lines of questioning,
My one and only change of pace;
Am I dead,
Hollow,
Numb,
Heartless,
Imaginary,
Or just insane?
The barriers have fallen
Away from my brain

Loved the frantic rhythm you achieved with this piece, very apt for its subject matter.

[Blake Fodor]

Very beautifully done. This is vivid and moving work . The imagery describes not just a scene but a feeling

[Matching Socks]

The questions that run through the mind of the speaker are all to relatable.
Fine writing.

[Patrick]

This is so beautifully penned.

[Lauriegirl]

You have such an eclectic style. This is very creatively written and I love the title