Big Grains of Salt

Big Grains of Salt

A Poem by Annalisa (Marujuust)
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April 12th 2022

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I left my itching for abasement

With too much room for head displacement

And too much time to let it indulge

Knowing my mind would let it divulge

Could see its fears far past the red stripe

And it tried to pull me from the bite

The paranoia lacked a reason

Although it never seems to need one


But he pushed it back in illusion

And for the first time I believed him

I didn’t have to pull the curtain

And wake up into a blurred burden

My days escaped from survival mode

I could lift my lips without the load

But I didn’t know he pulled his blinds

And couldn’t really see the red line


Apple blossom

Bona fide possum

Rounded shoulders

Are bad tear-holders

Big grains of salt

Rip the red string faults

Sat on a bench

In a porous trench 


I was aware of the cold vacant eyes

That appeared right before each goodbye

But I saw the brown melt so deeply

I was frozen in trust completely

And he fought with so much affection

Thought, it must just be my projection

So was I only an itch to feel

Or did he once see a deep ideal?


Find it hard to trust an uncracked face

Especially when something’s encased

My sole existence provoked the dam

So he marked the concrete in my brand

He can't stand when I strip down onions

But he broke the dam when he cut them

I can confide in his thinner skin

But he sees the weak point as a whim


Apple blossom

Bona fide possum

Rounded shoulders

Are bad tear-holders

Big grains of salt

Rip the red string faults

Sat on a bench

In a porous trench 


And now he’s here playing Schroedinger

Because it takes guts to point fingers 

He’s buried his left heel in the sand

But he leaves his face out to get tanned

And he’s all open arms to my back

But when I turn around I get slapped

And now he can’t stand seeing my face

Because his mask is in my embrace


Normally I’d win playing albatross

And nailing my left heel to the cross

But then his neck made a scar I could feel

And something would turn over my heel

But the birds still flocked to my fingers

So that none of my pleas would linger

And I’m trying to say I’ll be here

But he's wearing another man's ear


Apple blossom

Bona fide possum

Rounded shoulders

Are bad tear-holders

Big grains of salt

Rip the red string faults

Sat on a bench

In a porous trench 


Now my box is turning cold

And his eyes won’t meet my own

My reach is never equal

Enough to see a sequel

But I can’t swallow salt grains

Because my mind likes a strain

And  I saw the changing eyes

And the skin is not a guise

Because he felt it on his neck

He felt something on his neck

I think I miss being warm

Being sheltered from the swarms

And I can’t stand finding clues

That he once searched for it too

Because my reach wasn’t enough

And now it’s become too much

And now I miss being warm


Apple blossom

Bona fide possum

Rounded shoulders

Are bad tear-holders

Big grains of salt

Rip the red string faults

Sat on a bench

In a porous trench 

© 2022 Annalisa (Marujuust)


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JayG

2 Years Ago

• I don't know my own emotions so evoking emotions in other people will be more of a challenge.read more
Annalisa (Marujuust)

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It really does. In fact, I haven't finished school yet as you said, so I don't even have the technic.. read more
JayG

2 Years Ago

You definitely have the right attitude. Read a few chapters of that Swain book, slowly, with time sp.. read more

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