I Am Not That Lucky Girl

Old shizz ;}

I've finally found you,
and your creative ways of writing,
And I must say,
that you,
have indefiniatly improved,
In many ways.

My heart is aching with joy,
when I found your name in the making,
but then I think to myself,
But he has probably moved on, and met someone better.

My heart suddenly stops,
it's aching in pain,
it's telling me that this,
is something that doesn't stop and daze,
for someday,
you will be someone else's,
and with their beautiful face.

The girl will not be me,
The girl will not be me.
It took me ages,
to plant the seed of doubt,
into my head that was lying about.

My life is ruined,
my life is in pain.
My life is in danger,
you might be able to say.

I someday might cry,
and I might be angry,
but to tell you the truth,
Life isn't that handy.

But my wishes to you,
and my wishes to her,
I hope you are both happy.

She must be lucky,
to have a guy like you,
Caring.
Loving.
And hated the sight of bullying.

You must be happy,
to have a girl like her,
Adorable.
Cute.
Kindess will spread to you.

So I'm happy to say,
that I will not break down,
or be emotionally unstable.

I know I can't have you.
I know I can't speak to you.
  I know I can't be your friend.
   I know I can't IM you.
    I know I can't contact you.
     I know I can't block the love between you and her.
      I know I can't forget you.
       I know I can't leave you.
        I know I can't forget the vivid memories of you.
         I know I can't let go.
          I know I can't be her.

          I know I am stupid.
         I know I am in pain.
        I know she is lucky.
       I know the decisions you make.
      I know every memory.
     I know every story.
    I know my heart aches.
   I know I am in tears.
  I know that I'm stupid, for all these years.
I know that your happy.
I know that I'm not.
 

Author's Note

This IS my work. I just copied it from MY dA account
http://www.mellyburstofbayum.deviantart.com