I Just Can't Put You Through This

The author tells a story about illness, love, and death.

I was doing just fine alone with my illness.

Why did you have to come into my life?

This is happening at the wrong time.

My doctors have diagnosed me with brain cancer.

They say it’s an incurable disease.

Medical science can’t do anything more for me.

How could you love me when I’m dying?

 

My condition is worsening day by day.

What will you do when my body starts to deteriorate?

I shan’t look the same way I do now.

Will you be able to cope with the situation?

It will be an unpleasant thing to behold.

If I lose my sanity, I won’t be able to appreciate your love.

 

You say no matter what happens you won’t leave me.

I have no chance of ever recovering.

Although you know that we can’t have a future together,

You want to stay by my side until I breathe my last breath.

I’m sad, for I see what this is doing to you.

You cry at my bedside, and it tears my heart in two.

 

It will soon be over, and your heart will be free.

You know that I truly love you, Jade.

I’m a courageous man, and I’m not scared to die.

Your love gives me the courage to face death,

But I just can’t put you through this.

Move on with your life before your grief gets greater.

Darling, I want you to go away now.

Author's Note

Ladies, try to hold back the tears when you are reading this composition.