I'm So Confused

This is a complicated love story.

I can’t cope with this unhappy marriage

I’m afraid it’s not working for me

What I mean is that it feels like torture

I’m not very skilled at pretence

My act has lasted so long, and it’s a mystery

I can’t keep deceiving you this way

I just don’t love you, I never did

Frankly, I don’t know why I married you

Day and night, I think about the past

The woman I love doesn’t love me anymore

It happened just as I’d predicted

At one time, she loved me obsessively,

But she lost feelings for me

Is this reality or just a bad dream?

My whole life is an illusion

I want to wake up from this nightmare

I’ve never doubted your love,

But I’d rather you didn’t love me

I can’t reciprocate the love you show

The tension is literally killing me

You’re clinging to what you think exist

Sometimes I feel something for you,

But I don’t feel like I’m in love

I don’t have erotic feelings for you

It’s wrong to let you waste your love on me

I don’t want to divorce you,

Neither do I want to stay with you

Chelsea, I’m so confused

You may think I’m an ungrateful man,

But I’m not as lucky as you are

You have me, and that’s what you want

Things are going OK for you

I never got what I wanted out of life

Author's Note

Here's an old piece.