What the hell have i been doing

I've been ignorant

Angels in the sky watching over me, ,helping me, guiding me, trying to keep me from burning away everything inside of me , but the angel beside me loving me, holding me, kissing me, being everything I ever needed is painfully crying her tear drops of her love for me, Our love of us away, because I chose to look back at a flame drenched road that I departed from, to only allow mind to be entranced by that destructive light , to allow myself to attempt to put out flames nakedly, and to sit there in oblivious as to why this hurts, to sit there in wonder of why I’m turning to ash, and to be so stupid to carry these flames down the departure of that road, indulged in so much of my own ignorance fighting the wrong war of trying to save the road that was traversed, twisting myself to save the ashes from that journey to wear as war paint against an enemy that doesn’t exist in me, all while this angel screams so ferociously, crys so hurtful, and pleads so honorably to stop, to stop hurting her, to stop hurting us, to stop hurting myself, and walk down this road that is clean and free of flames, that is engulfed in her love and littered in life by god, I must be a fool.
I’m sorry diamond.