F**k I’m Drunk

I can’t get used to this
Not seeing you
Or worse
Seeing you out and not really talking
Just side glances and small talk
Filling my brain with rage
And anguish
I want to know how you’re doing
I want to know how your life is
I want to know if you ever plan on speaking to me again
I want to know why you look so god damned sad
I want you to hold me on the couch
While we watch some asinine show
Pretending we don’t feel s**t for each other
Tell me I didn’t make this up
I know you care about me
I know you love me
I know you miss me
Please don’t prove me wrong
Don’t shut me out
Just because people are telling you to
I long to see your eyes looking at me again
With that twinkle that I know only I see
Because no one else f*****g knows you
And you only show it to me
Everyone else is so boring
I need you
You’re the only one that matters
F**k