You’re All I Want

It’s been about a month
Since I’ve really talked to you
How am I supposed to live
With all of these memories
Replaying in my mind
Like a looped cassette tape
My calls and texts go unanswered
Getting more and more desperate
After seeing you every day
For the last year
I dread my days off of work
Because I am suddenly realizing
That you may not come back
It could just be over
I cannot deal with this feeling
Emptiness and anxiety
Hollowing sadness
No one can make me forget you
I want to erase every part of you
From the deep folds in my brain
My body aches
To hear your voice
To grip you tightly in a hug
But I’m stuck here
Geese honking out my window
As they fly south for winter
In my dark room
Under my thick duvet
Too upset to move
Watching the same shows we used to watch
Together
On repeat
Smoking your brand of cigarettes
When I never used to smoke
Because now they smell like home
Remembering our talks
Your smile
I lost my best friend
God I miss you
What am I supposed to do now?

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[Mr. D]

The more you try not to think of someone, the more you do. It is hard to forget people. It is even harder to forget when they betray you.