Help Yourself

I didn’t think it would be so hard
To leave someone so toxic
After everything, we had something special
Didn’t we?
Or did I imagine it all?
I don’t think I made up
All the deep conversation
And breathless laughs
And wracking sobs
The memories stab my brain
Good and bad
Wishing I could have helped you
But you have to help yourself
I am overwhelmed with heavy guilt
For missing your company
Not even your love
I don’t want that anymore
Just you
I am so saddened
That I am better off
Without you
And I am so proud that I chose this
Because I deserve more
Goodbye