The past

As soon as I see it fresh pangs of pain hit my heart. A few waves of heat overcome me and i feel my face getting red. My eyes start to burn as they begin to water. Will this ever go away? Will this depression ever fade? I have no answer, but my heart sinks further with every day that passes so chances are most likely not.

The thing that hurts the most is that everyone pretends to understand when they really dont. No one will ever understand how this feels. Always reminded of the painful memories that i cannot let go of I stay silent, never daring to let my emotions show. Once or twice they've slipped but i brushed it off before anyone noticed.

Feeling broken i try to make it through each day with less hope and trust then the day before. When certain thoughts cross my mind my stomach reels and and churns making me feel like im dying. This is who i am now and this darkness that hovers over me will never cease. It haunts me every day to the point where all i have is a blank expression in the mirror. 

There is nothing left for me so with each day i drag myself through i become weaker. Im afraid that if i do this any further ill lose all will i have left and just give up.