If OnlyA Poem by Maria M.Her foot bounces up and down underneath the
old diner table; the one they have sat at so many times before. But this time
is different; this time she cannot find a reason to stay, nor can she discern a
reason to leave. In essence, she is numb, though she cannot recognize whether
or not in this situation she has put herself in this is a positive or not. She can feel his eyes on her as she moves the
food around her plate, wondering how long it will take him to notice that she
really isn't eating. Then again, she hopes he will not notice at all; when he
sees, he cares, and that’s what got her into this mess in the first place. After a few moments, she doesn’t hear him
talking anymore and for a second almost thinks that he has left; but when she
raises her eyes in the brief silence, he catches her glance and takes her hand
in his. When he does, a warmth rests on her fingers and almost attempts to
travel up her arm--a cure for her numb heart, but the moment is brief and the
sensation fades at her wrist. If he turns her hand over, he will see them, but
she will not allow him to, she has been down that road with him before. He is
far too good for her, he cares far too much for something that has no ability to
love him back. Yet she uses him; she lets him care. She lets
him encase her hand with his, and the longer he does, the more she needs him to
understand. If only a touch could speak-- If only a
touch could speak it would
tell you what I have done, it would
tell you who I am, it would
tell you how much I do not deserve you and yet it
would beg you not to leave; If only a
touch could speak, it would
tell what you have done, it would
tell you who you are, it would
tell you that you deserve so much more and yet it
would remind you how much you care. If only a
touch could speak, it would
tell you that I am broken, it would tell
you I cannot be fixed, it would
tell you that should not try; and yet it
would selfishly ask you to remain instead. If only a
touch could speak, It would
tell you that I love you But not in
the way you want, It would
tell you that I need you But not in
the way I want; it would
tell you that you are better than all I'll ever be it would
tell you that you deserve, so much more than me; it would
tell you to let me go to be all that I would see to be happy,
to be whole, to be loved; in essence, to be free. © 2011 Maria M.Reviews
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