Tearlessly Crying

 

I must be strong now,

stronger than self pity.

You have to understand

that time won’t heal me,

so I have to heal myself.

Yesterday…

Today…

Tomorrow…

They all mean the same:

pain, hurt, loneliness

- it is all mixed up -

No relief in any desire.

Lies, deception, what’s next?

You never seemed to care,

never seemed to love me.

And now, what am I?

A fool? A victim?

Nobody? Nothing?

Only a young woman,

who just found out

that she has no one else

but her lonely heart

to talk to in her pain.

Tearlessly crying.

 

 

© 2008 Maria Retz

Author's Note

Please let me know if you find errors in the text. I am trying to learn English as fluently as possible. Thank you.

Reviews

[Puella M. W.]

Dear Maria Retz,

Thanks! Thanks for writing that poem - I sooo enjoyed reading that. It's beautfully heartbreaking... the monotony of depression. I can almost feel the grief and painfulness the narrator is going through.

Puella M. W.

P. S.:Your English is fine.

[Tamluvstowrite]

This is so beautiful. I really enjoy it. Keep up the good work.

[Lady Nicole]

Hey.. That was Wonderfully Written I liked it.. I can relate to it In many ways..

Here today gone tommorrow
who knows what the day will bring..
You told me today you'd be here but
today is tommorrow just another day of Lies..
You vowed to be here with me..
But you left me standing, in the ice cold rain
pouring over my head.. streaking my face as
my Mascara runs down my face...
I must look like a sad soul.. here i stand alone
waiting for you to say im here.. but as the story goes
You said you be here.. but today is tommorrow..
so as the saying goes.. Here today
gone tommorrow.. should I give up? or do I dare
to quit? what is it you wish from me , that you lied to me
You said you be here.. you Promised me.. But
always.. You told me youd be here but look at me now
alone .. lonely and crying once more..
here today and gone tommorrow..
same ole story same ole ryhme..
look at Him he can never keep His lies
straight.. guess it pays in time but look at me
here I stand alone.. Mistied brown eyes swollen
I am standing here alone.. in the icy cool pouring
rain.. looking for you but.. guess what
You never showed up.. so yes.. the story ends..
You lied to me once, You lied to me twice
Today was the final Lie.. so I guess It's time
to put away .. the Candles because
You wont be coming back to me..
You were here today .. but gone tommorrow
just look at Janice She never leaves..

Lady Inspiration..
Nicole H.

Just a thought that came to mind.. I hope you enjoy it..

[Red Witch of Decca Fall..]

This was beautifully written and your words flowed perfectly. You did a fine job.

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

All the text was just fine and the poem speaks so deeply of heartache... very nicely done.

[Satchmo's Gal]

I must be strong now,
stronger than self pity.

Beautiful