Even in the 2K7

Never let yourself believe anothers lies, you have the strength inside you, believe in yourself, its ok to be good ...... I apologise to myself for self doubt and will cut him a new arsehole if we meet again.

Even in the 2K7

Even now are we predestine live by the standards set by our predecessors? what if we actually want more?

I for one am losing faith, faith in myself, faith in my hopes and faith in my beliefs. Are the very building blocks of my personalities in fact fallacy?

We all like to believe we have choices in life when in fact we do not, it is just that the cage has been increased to such a size we are no longer able to see the walls. It is still a cage whether we can see the bars or not.

I now question the very cement of my soul. I have spent most of my life showing people that to be happy they must trust in themselves, encouraging hope, giving people the chance to believe and helping them to be true to themselves. But do you know what? in the end the drones of the world were right, if you lower your standards, stop chasing your dreams and cheat yourself ... then you will be happy. I have seen two pertinent examples of this recently, one from another who has been chasing a dream since he was a boy and one of my own.

I feel I have to apologise to all of the people I have met and encouraged to be themselves and follow their heart, for I have surely set them up for a fall and heartbreak.

If only I had believed the masses and lied to myself .......

NO NO NO, I TAKE IT ALL BACK, I KNOW WHO I AM

I am the girl who likes to walk bare foot in artic weathers, I like the smell of spring and fall, I love the rain (especially kissing in it), I read Shakespeare and vampire novels, I can formulate an informed arguement, make and action the most complex plans, stand up for whats right at whatever the cost, I love ruby slippers and football (come on Arsenal), I walk on my tip toes and laugh out loud at farts, I like to watch video games that use a chain saw to cut someones head off but am completely against and disgusted by violence/war/guns, I am contradictory as I am strong to the death for others and weak to the death for myself, I love rainbows but can't paint, I love music but have no natural talent, I see good things in everyday life and appreciate the small miracles, I love to cook but my oven door keeps falling off, I am a health freak but still smoke and drink wine, one word from a certain person is enough to sustain me all year, one word from the wrong person is enough for me to doubt myself, I love doing things for others but rarely let them do things for me, I love the colour red, I can't sing a note but quite often sing loudly without care, I make mistakes but do not judge, I love to clean but would happily live on a desert island with sand in every nook and cranny, I love my family beyond belief but would give them up in a wink of an eye for him, I CANT STAND STRAIGHT GIN but have drunk it much recently, I am the person that will stop in the street for a stranger whatever the cost, read my poetry and I will be your friend for life, paddle in the river and jump the stepping stones with me but don't expect me to lose at pooh sticks ......

Be inspired, remember all the little things that make you you, I just have.
 

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[Shane Patrick]

I love doing things for others but rarely let them do things for me...
this is why I say kindred.. and like minds... again a triumph.. :)