Search and Seizure

About how I felt when I was holding my ex (before)and she had a seizure. It was not the first time she had one but it was the first when I was holding her. She is okay. This is written for her to read

Search and Seizure

By Jimmy Glenn

21 April 2017

The pain

Is worse than I thought

Everything i do is in vain

Because it doesn’t matter how much I’ve fought

The look of her spacing

Is the first sign

But it’s not as bad as facing

He as she goes limp, like a loose line

All I feel is dead weight

She is alive

But i know that i hate

When it happens, not matter how much she strives.

The thought of loss

Is what slowly kills me

So I began to pray on the cross

To see if it would make the pain flee.

Every time I’m there

And she falls

It costs me an emotional faire

And I scream as my body crawls.

I’m not the only one

But it hurts me more than most.

My pain begins to feel like a ton

As my life begins to coast.

When I’m alone

I can’t stop seeing it

As I lay prone

Remembering all the s**t

My eyes begin to water

My hands shake

And i know I have to try harder

Or at least try and fake

It looks like nothing affects me

But really it does

Pain comes with a fee

And I hope I gain her trust.

Now I look back

Remembering it all

Being glad I was there

So that you’ll never fall.

Author's Note

This is wrote for her to read but I would like some advice before just showing it to her and hoping for the best. Thank you to anyone whom decides to help me.