Little Traumas: A Small Town OdysseyA Poem by Mango_BotThis was a poem I wrote because I just had the idea of comparing going down a deep hill to growing up and I wanted to look at all the small traumas that make us who we are.Main Street is laid out before you, Dipping down further and further Until you can feel the fires of something wicked Creeping about, below the crumbling concrete
Your grip on the handles is airy, the yellow line is strolled gracelessly You drift in and out of the street lights’ gaze Your veins vibrate throughout your body, slamming into your bones Drowning out the world, filling your head with drumfire You pass the convenience store Where, maybe once long ago, some candy bars found their way into your coat pocket And he handled you like a rag doll, hankering for a confession All it took was a flicker of your lashes, which wet so easily and ever so slightly graze your eyelids, And the man behind the counter, defeated and defenseless, would let you take mercy on him It tasted sweet The man still stands his post, his eyes vacant and his skin poking out and drooping at the edges, collecting in a pile underneath his neck His hands now shake as he opens the register Where’s the thrill? It tastes sour Next comes the Sunday hot spot Where maybe you passed under the watchful stone eyes of St. Aloysius And fell to your knees, hands pressed together and against your skull And you bode your time When you heard it was safe to, you sat up Crossed your heart And maybe you wondered What did they think about? The same place where maybe, while your parents worked the bake sale He took you out back and his temptation,from a distance, snaked in your ear His promises sculked through air, noxious in your lungs But for a moment maybe you felt like this was you And when he dropped the bud on your shiny white flats It took root And you nourished it And you, Maybe, you tell yourself, you didn’t want this Your feet have left the pedals You don't remember when you lost it You keep hurtling You pass the bench, Where you sat that spring night under the streetlights In your fancy new clothes, with something dark and potent Floating in your blood Because the magic man behind the school told you It would make tonight easier That you might make it out in one piece And maybe on that park bench His breath suffocated you Your body dethroned your brain And he held you, Perhaps a little too close The police station Where her voice was raw and violent, and you knew The foundation of that house was just a story she kept telling you Slowly changing with every retelling, until one day there were no heroes Only people, who didn't know what they were doing She was scared So you try not to be So maybe, just maybe When you raise your voice You hear your own And not hers You can't stop it now You’re going faster than they said you would You push the world off of you and throw your head back, to breathe If even only for moment before it brings you close once more And you’re stuck You get flashes There’s the house Where the ghost of a girl, whose body is still warm, lives And who is off in a world you’ve never known Doing things, that will never touch you Now there is just the blue light of a TV screen, Streaming through a window and into the street, With a family sitting on a couch you once owned every Friday night Next a house Where you left snow tracks out the back door, So they would all know And you could have him. A coffee shop Where maybe you talked a little louder than you normally do So he might hear you Hear the happiness you have Hear how great you are ... Hear the longing in your voice And maybe when he did, you realized It felt good to know, you still had him You feel as if everything has let its grip on you loosen You brace for whatever comes, When Main Street levels out The air races from your lungs and eyelids begin to veil your sight The tar was coarse and sharp, it grated your leg And brought out new fresh baby pink skin, dripping with vitality Ahead of you there are no street lights No convenience stores No benches Just the open road Your breath is steady The world is slow Take your time When you’re ready, © 2018 Mango_BotReviews
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2 Reviews Added on March 3, 2018 Last Updated on April 26, 2018 Tags: suburban youth adolescence AuthorMango_BotRutland, MAAboutIm a teenager who started writing through nanowrimo and i just want to put some work out there to get some feedback more..Writing
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