SORROW

This poem's about numerous things that caused me sorrow and despair many years ago and actually, still do.

SORROW                                               

I trudge along in this blur called my life.

It overflows my senses with burden and strife.

Emotions come raging like waves out of my mind.

Resentment and anger overflow my heart inside.

My soul drowns in confusion and intolerable sorrow.

My blind stupidity is gone with tomorrow.

My trust floats away on a gusty breeze.

Along with my desire and ability to believe.

To believe in my future and what my destiny holds,

    In what I want and what actually unfolds.

My soul is weighed down by remorse and bottomless hate.

Hate of this situation and my irreversible fate.

                 Hate of wanting and yearning for more.

           Hate of the sadness that plagues me like before.

A malady of depression, anger, and regret.

Of events never wanted and goals never met.

    Of promises spoken, but that never came true.

Of never being loved, no matter what I do.

Blissfulness is an emotion I will never achieve.

I used to have faith, but no longer believe.

Why trust so blindly in unpredictable fate?

When I find out I'm wrong, it's already too late.

Why trust in anyone with all of your heart and soul?

When you do that, you're no longer in control.

I want out of this crazy chaos, no matter the cost.

I want out of this despair that has me forever lost.

I wander around in a mist that wraps me in a daze.

My life's in shambles, an impregnable maze.

I have no route of escape, no better tomorrow. I just take a deep breath and swallow my sorrow.