Cant Sleep...

She cant sleep all she keeps doing is thinkin of him! She misses him so much! She is counting down the days till they meet again...

      Ugh! Last night was awful! I was up all damn night. Every minute I spent awake was another minute I spent missing you. I couldn't get you out of my head. I just laid there in bed staring up at the wall and listening to my music. I was hoping that would help me fall asleep, but it did absolutely nothing! Instead I had pictures of you, and us together playing in my head. My head was spinning and hurting. I was about to scream! I couldn't do this anymore. How could I go another 45 days! Its already been 9 f*****g months! These months have been such a pain in the a*s! I've dealt with more crap with players, b*****s, s***s, drama and especially love. I don't want to anymore! All I want to do now is be with you! I want you to kiss and hug me again! I want be able to get that feeling I got when I was with you! I just want to go back to loving each other. I want to go back 9 months before! When we spent everyday together. That was the best summer of my life! That was the summer I met you and fell in love. It was you I gave my first kiss to! God I love you! I know we talk and text everyday but its not as good as the real thing. Last night we talked for hours and those were the best few hours ever! We talked about this summer coming up, the future, and just everything! I don't know how I ended up with such an awesome guy, but who cares. I believe that God sent me an angel! You know why I believe this? It's because his smile, laugh, personality, and his voice! OMG! His voice is so soothing and wonderful! It always helps me go to sleep at night. Sometimes it even helps me relax and puts my mind at ease, but tonight that wouldn't happen. Oh and he has eyes of an angel. There a deep ocean blue the size of diamonds. Ok, maybe not that big, but you get the picture. I wish you could love the way I love him! I wish you knew what I am going through! This feeling that I feel is just too real! If only I didn't have to keep waiting. Waiting for you is like waiting to take your last steps before you die.... I suffer without you here. I know that if I was with you again I wouldn't have to be afraid, sad, or even lie. I wouldn't have to suffer anymore! I could just go back to being with you. Oh God, I miss you so much! I cant ever sleep without you near. I feel such a fear. I most afraid of losing you though and Its all because I cant help but love you.

Only 45 days! Which is like 9 weeks!

Author's Note

This is seriously happening to me right at this very moment. I dont know what to do! Ugh! Well hope ya like it! Oh and I dont care about grammar, typos or flow! Sorry if you dont like this....

Reviews

[Writing with Kae]

I like this poem....

[joanofbooke]

i have been diagnosed with acute cronic insomnia so therefor i can relate to this somewhat its a good short story please feel free to send me read reports

[thatbryngirl]

wow...this is good... and im goin through the same thing so i'm hoping that i wont have such a hard time when it reaches the 9 month mark (like you) ...now im thinkin that it might be even harder after reading this... we'll see i guess.

[Silere]

Sad knowing that this is what you're going through.. but it's good to know that you have someone to love!

[Havatara]

I kinda liked it, but it sort of kept saying the same things over and over again, and that made it annoying. Also, you started most of you sentences with I and ended them with an exclamation point. It would be better if you had more paragraphs as well. Keep writing, though!

[Scarlet Pulse]

It is a good write, deep emotions and expressing the longing for your love. I thought it was nice. And I hope everything works out.

[JenLyn]

A very nice write, keep it up! :)

[Luna Northstar]

Awwww, its nice, and really sad. It holds all your emotions without overflowing, you kept it in a nice balence, great job! (Sorry for what your going through right now, I know how your feeling)

[Coyote Poetry]

I wrote a story once. Called 90 days. Your story is very good. When we are in the mist of a strong love. Best days and nights of a life. I tell people hold on tight and hope the emotion can last forever. A outstanding story.
Coyote

[Star Wolf]

Quite the story of longing and desperation!