My Demons

A Poem by Mandy

It's not finished. But here is what I have so far during the most painful period in my life thus far.. The first chunk is rapped, the second chunk is sung.

How did I get myself here?
My demons won the battle and brought on my greatest fear
And now it’s clear
All I want to do is care for you and give you everything you want and need but you’re no longer here
It’s not fair
You’re acting cold and heartless, like nothing was ever there
I’m aware
Of everything I’ve put you through, every time I walked on you, more pain and hate and suffering than most people could bare
But I care! I’m breaking down before you spilling out my soul, I’m bare.
Don’t you walk away from me. Don’t give up on this family. I planned on my children growing up in just one home, you see?
The last thing this world needs is another broken home
You realize that you’re young and rather be out on your own?
You’re really gonna turn me down and have a heart of stone?
You’d really rather go to bed and wake up all alone?

I gave in to my demons
Let them keep me down
Now that I am broken
I’m finally coming out
Now you see the real me
The night turns into dawn
But it’s too late for you to care
Your heart’s already gone