Self Sabotage

This here is actually part of a song, but there is no category for that. It's obviously not finished. Any suggestions for how to keep the same words/idea but make for better flow is desired.

Count your blessings, count them one by one

Cover them in gasoline, playing with fire is fun

See how close you can get a flame without igniting the entire pile 

Not sure why, but I play russian roulette with my world every once in a while

Load, spin, pull, one of these times you’re gonna take the bullet

Even though you feel invincible, you can’t keep living through it

You’re not the exception to the rule, if you keep waving red you will upset the bull

So why do you even do it? 

Why do you even do it?