Untitled

It is untitled for a reason.

Untitled, unwritten

Words that are never spoken

Songs that will not be sung

Your story ended before it begun

Your life was stolen

Taken before it was given

I was left behind 

So I could ask the questions

My heart was shattered

I wanted to know why 

You were the gift I could not have

I felt like I was to also die

There is still a whole in my heart

A hole that will never mend

For you can never be in my arms

Until my time on Earth ends

I struggle to live each passing day

Knowing you are not here

I miss you now more than ever

It is very crystal clear

I loved you before I heard your voice

And now I will never hear it at all

I wish I could have a few minutes

To hold you as my tears fall

You are my angel

My beautiful baby

I will love you forever

and your mother for eternally

Author's Note

I had a child that was stillborn, in place of that child the hospital gave me a small teddy bear.

Reviews

[emmajoy]

' I loved you before I heard your voice ~ And now I will never hear it at all ~ I wish I could have a few minutes ~ To hold you as my tears fall.. '

You've written such an emotional but beautiful poem about a tragedy/ Could be kept hidden and, will be forever. Looking is feeling, Life must fill the void, perhaps. To say how desperately sad I am for you in an understatement. Not even the cuddliest teddy bear could compensate. Hugs and prayers. Tale care and, Koibito, keep safe.

[Sunburn]

These feelings are difficult. There are rarely any other feelings like this that hurts this much. The poem has a nice construction to give us a sincere and emotional feeling here even though as readers we can feel the sadness and grief here.

I don't know what to say other than closing my eyes and trying to understand the pain of the mother.

[Koibito "Nickie" Kitsuya]

Thank you so much. There is really know words to describe how much pain and loss when it comes to losing a child. When you look at the pic in the corner that is my son's bear. His bear and him share the same name, Phillip and for almost a decade now that bear has been by my side each and everyday. I have to say that that experience was the worse day of my life, But I am glad I can share the pain and anguish I felt with people like you are willing to hear.

[Lucien Maier]

POWERFUL, Your emotions are deep and stunning. This piece lets that all hang out, and gives the reader a small slice of what this horrible thing most be like.
Excellent piece thank you for sharing.

[Koibito "Nickie" Kitsuya]

Thank you so much. That really means a lot. There are no words that can express the emotions that go through a woman who has a stillborn child... Devestation, Anger... these and many more do not even come close to what I went through. The little teddy bear picture that is attached to his poem is the actual teddy bear that came home with me instead of my beautiful son. It even took me years to find the words to even come up with this piece and even then I wrote the poem on the computer blind cause I was crying so hard I couldn't even see.