Scared to be Lonely

loneliness was an unsatisfied thirst for illusion - kobe abe

i have a constant fear that

the one's i cherish will leave me.

i am scared to be lonely.

i cant express my love, my anger, 

my insecurities.

there is this rampart fortifying 

 all my feelings,emotions.

i act normal 

but then the silent screams ,

make my head burst.

i want to cry, i desperately want to,

but my tears cant get past through this numbness.

it feels like my identity is locked in the cage of

utter darkness.

and just when i try to open up 

this cruel world turns a deaf ear.

and then the rampart keeps getting higher.

Author's Note

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Reviews

[Thomas Fitzgerald]

A plight shared by many, however the lonely will always find a way to crave others, well done, good read.

[Malvika]

thank you!

[Ardra]

Loneliness or scared of being lonley is one of a silent killer i feel , something i could relate to...
the voices in head says so many different things...all that comes out is few mumbles and whispers...

you have expressed it well

[Malvika]

Thank you so much!

[Naval Tharun]

This is a very interesting read. Enjoyed it.


You will yourself to be alright, scared of the ones you love.
Realize… your walls will be broken one day,
you will walk the meadows, holding hands with a world that cherishes you

[Malvika]

Thank you for your kind words

[sparkly.ghost]

I relate so much to this... I love how you expressed the feeling of being unable to get outside ones own head, of being so scared of loneliness/being alone. It's beautiful. I also like your use of all lower case letters.

[Malvika]

Thank you so much!:)

[Mikku]

This work of yours resembles my feelings just 2 days back.... I can't express how am I feeling seeing the ghosts inside my heart translated into words.. And so accurate... I just loved it

[Malvika]

Thank you mikku :) I don't know why, its weird but I felt kinda nice that its just not me going through this. I hope this phase ends sooner for both of us

[The Purple Witch]

(applauds) This is absolutely amazing!!! Such depth and such utter truth in your words. :)

[Malvika]

Thank you so much!:)