Scream

I've been so lonely lately...this is the best way to get it all out.

I wake up every morning

Make tea, get ready

Head to class

Smile, put on the mask

That keeps me going 

Go to lunch, sit alone

Wish for someone to come up

Too shy to go up to someone I barely know

I'm an actor

Hiding behind a series of masks

Hide the exhaustion

Hide the insomnia

Hide the wishing for a friend that I trust

Go to dinner, sit alone

Wish for someone, anyone

Smile at someone in the cafeteria

They smile back, but don't move towards me

I want to go outside and scream

I spend all my time alone

On my laptop

Wishing for someone to suggest

Something, anything

I'm not desperate

Just lonely

Just wishing

Wishing for a place to take off the mask

To be myself

Hope is still there

Hope for the next place

That things just might be better