Thinking Out Loud

I did everything I could just to make you stay

So why is fate trying to take you away??

Still feeling sick inside, its just another day

The last things we said in my head on replay

Seems like hope is in the cracks slipping through

Trying to find myself but I'm lost in you

'Forget your feelings, you'll be fine, just move on'

I tell myself but I'm lying cuz I can't if you're gone

We said forever, its not forever if we don't make it there

I meant forever, seems like never and isn't fair.

For all the things I've done and for how hard I've tried

Still Can't keep myself from scabbing up on the inside.

I felt low but now I'm feeling lower

The pain is steady but the pace is somewhat slower.

I used to think I could control myself

Now I'm left bleeding trying to console myself

It's hard to think with all that I'm feeling

Laying on the floor looking up at the ceiling. 

It makes no difference, I can try to resist

But it always seems to come down to this...

Reviews

[I Am Svetlana]

Hey, I know it's been quite awhile since I've dropped by to review your stuff. I've really missed it though, so here I am :) I could relate to the title because I think out loud all the time, talking to myself, trying to figure things out. I often do that when it comes to math problems too when I am working to solve them. I loved the raw emotion in this piece...but at one point in our lives, we have no choice but visit the road of heartbreak. It's nothing easy, but everything happens for a reason, whether we believe it at the time of not. Perhaps this was how it was meant to be...

[Twizzler]

Thanks for stopping by :) Sadly I wrote this before everything started to unravel and I realize now that somewhere inside I knew what was coming, just didn't expect it to be so bad. Trust isn't easy and especially when you spend 3 1/2 years with someone to find that they had zero respect for you or your feelings and always put themselves first. I'm usually very good at reading people but sometimes we lie to ourselves when we love someone and try to believe that they love you back in the same way.

[I Am Svetlana]

Ugh, I know how it is to be with someone and be treated like nothing. Though mine didnt last three and a half years, only two and a half weeks. The guy was a complete sociopath, I'm sure and always thought he was so much better than everyone around him. I lost my vCard to him, then days later, he broke up with me and completely wrote me off...acted like I never existed, as if he and I had never met. I was a mess, but I soon came to realize that guys like him aren't worth crap to anyone and better off alone.

[Twizzler]

Awwwe...hearing that just makes me mad for you. I'm sorry that you ever had to go through that.

[I Am Svetlana]

And you as well, my dear :(

[wolf843]

Nice I really felt your pain there. I didn't really see where Chris was coming from when he said you were forcing it...

[Twizzler]

Thanx for having my back. I appreciate all honest reviews though.

[Chris]

You're better than this... you've wit and heart and a first class mind. I know if it's real it hurts but after the other two of yours I've read this feels like you're forcing your flow to the rhyming... and if it isn't real, you are wasting a great chance to make me believe it was ...cause I wanted to hear your words again.

[Twizzler]

Thanks for reading...it is definitely real, I wrote what flowed out at the time.

[Andrea]

Truly a great rhyme with how it feels to lose somebody. No matter how you lose them, the pain you feel is a pure loneliness. Loved it :)

[Twizzler]

Thanx hun. I appreciate the review.

[Andrea]

Any time, will continue to read your stuff :)

[Sami Khalil]

You have thought outloud and we have heard you...Bravo....................

[Twizzler]

I appreciate your kind review :)

[Sami Khalil]

You are welcome kindly...:)....................

[A. Amos]

Such a powerful subject! Your writing is so magnificently constructed. 

[Twizzler]

I'm glad to hear that. Thank you so much for the positive review.

[Scott Metro]

Some pain and sorrow here...
Hope you recover....

Well done Malerie..
Scott

[Twizzler]

Thank you very much :)

[Scott Metro]

:)
Scott......

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Wow Malerie!!!!!! This is awesome girl:)

[Twizzler]

Thank you!

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Welcome :)