Letter to My Father

Just another rich white girl with Daddy issues? No. Stop.

These pages are stained,

Eyeliner and tears.

 

Each line has meaning,

My worries and my fears.

 

I thought I wouldn't cry,

But tears poured from my eyes.

 

I'm tired of all this,

Of all the hate and the lies.

 

I want you to be proud,

But I fear you never will be.

 

Sometimes I fear,

That you don't even love me.

 

It's a ridiculous thought,

I know.

 

But these horrible thoughts

Just won't go.

 

I don't want to think

That you don't want me around.

 

I want to feel loved,

Safe and sound.

 

They're all ridiculous,

These thoughts in my head.

 

When I was younger,

They'd make me wish I was dead.

 

But I don't want that;

I don't want to die!

 

I just want you to believe

That none of this is a lie.

 

I really did cry

While writing you that letter.

 

I want you to read it.

I want you to feel better.

 

I want you to know

That I really do love you.

 

And I hope after everything.

You'll still love me, too.

 

I couldn't live with myself

If you still don't believe me.

 

Because by your side forever

Is where I want to be.

 

You probably won't believe me,

But I love you more than anything.

 

And if it makes you feel better,

I'll ever get a promise ring.

 

I'll promise you that,

For as long as I live,

 

All of my love,

To you I will give.

 

I'll promise you that,

Never again will I lie.

 

And to spend time with you,

I swear I'll try.

 

I'll promise you that

I'll do good in school.

 

And trust me - for that,

I'm definitely not too cool.

 

And I won't be cool at all,

If that's what you want me to be.

 

From now on,

All I'm going to do is me.

 

No more Internet,

And no more Twitter.

 

All it does

Is turn people bitter.

 

And I don't want you to be bitter.

At least not towards me.

 

Loving, caring, and awesome

Is all I want you to be.

 

And you are all those things,

I was just too stupid to see it.

 

I didn't mean what I said,

Not one little bit.

 

Please believe me,

I really hope you do.

 

Because everything you're going to read

Is one-hundred percent true.

 

I love you very much,

I hope you can see

 

That just how you are

Is exactly how I want you to be.

Author's Note

This is a serious issue, so don't be mean. Because none of you can afford to be mean.