So cold

had freetime and wrote this ... kinda how i feel right now ... but not entirely ... and NO! im not suicidle! dont worry...

Sitting here
watching the clock
tik tok tik tok tik tok
seems like every second
is slower then the last
tik tok tik tok
still every minute goes by
so fast
Waiting here
lonley in the cold
still so warm...
my hands shivering
Why? so cold
still so warm
second by second
tik by tok by tik by tok
only half a minute is over...
but so fast?
A minute, what was that?
Every second, so slow.
Every Minute, so fast.
Waiting here
lonley in the cold
still so warm
only on the inside
so cold
What's up with me?
I don't know....
So warm
But on the inside,
still so cold
What is this?
Love? Lonlyness? Happyness?
Hate?
Am I dying?
Slowly, painfully.

Alone,,,
I'm all alone in the cold.

No, wait!
Voices, all around me.
Calling me.
Touching me.
Loving me.

Still so cold.
But on the inside.
So warm

It's Friendship.
It's Love.
It's Family.

Thank you.