Smile

Lost again.
Where am I?
Can the radar pinpoint me or am I just too far out of reach?
Uncontrollable descent, slowly falling into the unknown.
Distortion, something is amiss.
Trying to grab a hold, but I can't stop it.
I feel my mind slowly unravelling, the breathtaking sensation of being crushed under this pressure is numbing.
My body weakens as I sink deeper and the more I resist the worse the pain gets.
A sudden hit crushes my chest, this odd sharp shock pummels into my chest and punctures it.
S**t, I'm done for, it's all over.
I wait for the blood to start gushing out but nothing happens.
Instead I feel my heart throbbing endlessly, with every beat it swells up, I can feel my throat being crushed by my heart.
I'm suffocating,  I can't breathe.
The lack of oxygen starts to mess up my already putty brain further.
Hallucinations in the form of visions distort my thinking.
I start to see a scene, a house, my house, it feels like home.
Who's that inside?
Who's in my house?
The door slowly opens, the throbbing, the breathlessness and swelling instantly return.
I am petrified by what I see.
You again?
How did you find the door so easily?
Why is it only you that can see past the mask?
How is your smile doing all this to me.