Selfish Love

I remember the honesty from your tears

Although, it became impossible to ignore how much I let you get away

Waited a while for that gut feeling to put me back to ease

I was your master plan, a smile secretly burning inside your hands

Telling me I give you a feeling you’ve never felt before, silly me believed

Paused for my breath to catch up, after you deceived me



You gave me this uneasy sadness inside of my soul after I took you back

Yet I still fell for you, every second I spend my time severing your every wish

Amazingly, I still wasn’t good enough to be the only one to lie in your bed

I have hate in my heart from the thought of me loving a selfish creature

Hopefully, one day you’ll grow up and be a real man...

Nail your sins to the cross with sanity in your eyes when you speak of love



I remember the honeymoon scene we glowed from  

Nothing could have convince me you where a cheater, not even my bff

Pain has now been replaced by a well deserving smile

I can’t say I don’t awake in the night crying softly to myself

Please stop calling me...

We don’t need to talk, go ahead and have your cake, I refuse to be your icing you can have anytime you want



I know what is best for me; time is only wasted by holding on

However, I refuse to be forgotten like some old stamp

Be abused like a lost dog that held its tail in between it legs  

I deserve to be treated with respect and not be punished for my poor grammar

I’m  held down by patience, when you won’t be able to borrow time,

Make sure to hear the lack of sadness in my voice when you tell me you've missed me



Your selfishness broke down my spirit, lead me to doubt myself

I woke up without the sight of my confidence, my self-esteem and my pride to help me walk out on you

Now I lay awake with vibrant eyes, control in my life and faith when darkness shines

I leave with a hunger in my voice, where your voice can't find a prayer

I sleep with a strength stronger then Jay Cutler, where you lay awake crying from your mistake

Starting today have decided to force on shooting for the moon and my needs being put first   

What are you doing with your life besides steeling from beautiful woman who deserve better then what you can ever give??....

Reviews

[allowed2b_sub]

Amazing line...'nail your sins to the cross with sanity in your eyes when you speak of love'
Thank you for this...

[Steve]

I love the controlled anger here. Very nice job of capturing such strong emotion.

[Jim Parson]

This captures perfectly every emotion of falling for the wrong person and you have the ability to take your reader on the journey with you. I'm glad the poem ends with self-awareness and resolve. Nicely done!