Morning, Noon and Night

 

I lay awake, frustrated

Morning after morning, lusting

Wrestling with my own weakness, internally

The thought of your hands easing down my spine, softly

Giving me a pleasure be on doubt, secretly  

Seduce me with your eyes under the moon, forever     

I hate to stumble backwards in my own poison, crying   

Hate to grew addicted to those gorgeous lips, without permission    

Say goodbye without you being there, to witness

I have to forcefully keep breathing when you’re near, soundly

Hold back my fingers from touching you, affectionately

I lay awake, aching

Clockwise after counter clockwise, fantasying

What it would be like if I laced my thighs around you, carefully

Pushed you up against the bedroom wall, passionately

Challenging our bodies to a night of sex therapy, repeatedly   

The taste of strawberry & cream delight melts on my lips, kiss me

Let me know what you need, physically

 

I lay awake, dreaming

Night after night, aroused

Fighting with my mind to wait, patiently

I image the strength of your eyes on top of me, begging

However, I lost my way

Forgot you told me how you aren't aroused by me anymore

Tears bubble in disbelief down my check, screaming

You cut me, deeply!

Claiming you never meant for us to get this far, friendship...committed

For you I gave you my heart, blindfolded

Skipped breakfast in bed to make love, hardcore

Left you my prayers in a box you once kept safe, sadly

I lay awake, starving

Day after day, hurting

For you I turned against the world, fearfully

                  What I wouldn’t do to turn back time, forget                 

  To fall in love with someone that cherishes, me