The Person I Once Was

An older poem

And I can feel myself becoming the person I once was
Turning away from the world
Pushing away people and the emotions that come with them
The pain
The hatred
The false hope and crushed dreams

I can feel my numbness overwhelm me
And I can hear the words the people speak, but they mean nothing to me
They stir no emotion, nor do I believe they ever will

As I sit in this room surrounded by so many people,
I lose myself in my empty thoughts
And this black vast loneliness of my soul
And I slowly become the person I once was in this lifetime

The person I once despised
The person who could never become anything more than a numb shell walking in this Hell we inhabit called earth
And the person who I will hate forever more.