Brain Cancer

Hopes of something never to happen yet its hard to be nice...

 Once the sky falls its bound to come back up. 

"Goto sleep baby, you've been up all night."

She was bed ridden,
and had looked terrible. 

"No mom, I've got to keep you company." 

My heart knew this was her last night on 
this planet. God was telling me that they 
needed her. 

She was diagnosed with brain tumor 
a year ago, and her body has been
rotting away ever since. 

"Besides, I know how much you like 
watching the cooking channel, I thought
I'd learn a thing or two, for Kim you know?"

I had lied, besides my wife
Kim cooks way better than me. 

"...Son..."

She paused for a moment. With every ounce
of effort in her body she looked at me. And with 
her every so dry weak voice she spoke.

"I--I'm sorry..."

"Sorry for what?" I asked

Suddenly a tear came out of her eye and she
responded in a tone that was almost hard to hear.
"S-sorry for l-leaving you..., I--I wish
I, took -- C-care of you more. I worked so hard
to make sure you had what you wanted. I-it was 
my fault for not being there...I wish I supported
your dreams more..."

After all these times as a normal son, with normal
arguments. I had always blamed her for being away.
Always blamed her for not taking care of me. Always 
blamed her for picking up on her bad habits. 

It was the hardest thing to watch. She started to cry 
and the harder she tried to get her words out 
the more she stumbled upon her words.

She continued, "I'm so p-proud of you, all of the things
you've done s-so far. Your company and your marriage 
I'm sorry I wont be around to see the f-future. I want 
to see Zerian and Hayley grow up. I want to see the story
you always wanted since you were a kid."

My heart was pounding. Out of all of life's bullshit this had
got to be the worst. Why does this f*****g s**t have to happen? 

"Say I love you to everyone..."

Then it happened. She had past away. The death of a queen, 
the death of a leader. 

I was stabbed in the side of the stomach. I was essentially dead,
I wanted to follow her so badly. My world was gone. an infinite 
galaxies exist yet one tiny speck on the map felt like
it was a bigger than the entire universe.

Reviews

[Christine]

This story had me in tears, even if it is just a short write. It was very powerful, and it sure pulled at my heart strings when the mother was apologizing. Thank you so much for sharing this brilliant write.

[Roderick J. Lizardo]

sure =) I'd appreciate that. if you have any critiques feel free email me at maerrick[at]gmail[dot]com

[Satine]

I could offer advice on how to pare this down and make the write tighter, perhaps, but the sentiment carries this piece so well it would be absurd to try and alter it in any way.


Satine

[Lucy Landers]

All I can say is: all my love to you.