Chapter 1

Anna Heisenberg's POV 

The thought
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The thought of growing up with a messed up childhood is so depressing to hear.Of course! Who wouldn't get depressed from hearing about a girl,locking herself in her room everyday and would often cry herself to sleep because of the nightmares that she would often get EVERY.SINGLE.NIGHT. 

The thought of growing up alone made me get used to shutting myself out for other people.People usually ask me why i ended up being like this and what is THIS you ask? Having anxiety,depression,bipolar,social phobias and just getting panic attacks whenever i get very nervous or get very scared.

There isn't a single day that nobody would ask me about my condition.And i would answer them in the most simplest sentence."I..honestly..Don't know either..Maybe i was created to be like this..Maybe God wanted me to suffer in this despicable world.." That's the thought that would always pop inside my head every time someone asks me.Sad isn't it? 

Saddest part is my parent's decided to enroll me in cram school.I promised them that i would study harder for now on.But they barely trust me.Well,just giving one glance towards me would get someone having second thoughts in trusting me.I know..I know..I'm being hard on myself again.My therapist told me to stop looking down on myself every time i see myself in a mirror.

The thought of being ugly,talentless and worthless is just so.. UGH ..Imagine you were in my shoes.It always makes me think..what's my purpose in life? Everyone says that everyone has a purpose why god chose them to live in this cruddy planet.I think..I don't have a purpose..Maybe i'm just here for nothing..Maybe i was just a reject..An accident.

Nobody's POV

Somewhere in Northern Germany a small house could be seen in the distance.It was crooked and slightly dark.It seems like it doesn't usually get much sunlight since there was a lot of trees surrounding it.It was 12 am Midnight.Inside the small crooked house lived a girl with a very small family.

Her name was Anna Heisenberg.

The brunette was laying on the bed,her back flat against the mattress.Longing and deep sighs could be heard.She seems to be in another deep thought.She never gets enough sleep since she often overthinks about certain things.Anna would look up at the ceiling and begin to space out.It felt like she had her own world inside her mind.

Knowing that she has to attend cram school everyday made her anxious and baffled on why again she has to go.It pretty much ruined her daily schedule.She goes to school,leaves,borrows a book from the library,goes home and just reads it until she finishes.
That's what she does everyday.She lived a sad,bland normal life.

Later the brunette finally snapped out of her thought,looking at the clock and noticed how time quickly passed by.It was already 3 am in the morning."I don't understand." she gently spoke to herself,her hands placed over her stomach as she stares quietly at the clock,still trying to adjust and accept it was morning.

She had school and again she had another day without sleep.

A soft groan released out of her mouth and quickly hid her face underneath a pillow."Why does this happen to me? I might fall asleep during class again." she muffled against the soft cottony pillow against her face.

End