Forever a Pattern of Men Leaving

I've never brought myself to write about you

I've never felt as though I had the strength

I've written about men boys before..

the ones who came into my life

loved me

then left without warning

Those men boys were easy to write about

You..

You were different

I loved you more

Needed you more than any of them

You loved me more than they could have

But you still left

when I wished on every star that

you'd be here forever

Unfortunately, cancer doesn't care for my wishes 

And she sure as hell didn't care about yours

Seven years was not enough for me.

And thirty-five was not nearly enough for you.

I miss you-

the only man who will ever love me

how I deserve to be loved