love

love is a word that i can feel in my veins

as it drives me insane

as it drips through the roof

as it floods down in rain

surrounding the globe 

overflowing with hope

that no one will feel 

the things i have felt

hold the cards I’ve been dealt

live through the same hell..

that i have

because if I’ve learned one thing from it all…

it would be this…

that above all else,

you must first love yourself,

love the way that you smile 

love the way that you grow 

love the top of your head 

to the tips of your toes..

now i know this is easier said than done

it feels like a battle to never be won

it feels hopeless and painful and horrid as well…

it feels like you’re trapped deep inside hell.

but I’ve been there.. I’ve felt that low

out of options- no place left to go

but I dug my way out.. dirt under my nails…

the love that once felt like rain.. now felt like hail… 

betrayal and hurt was all that Id known

living my life being alone…

that wasn’t love that i once felt…

that was the anger and hatred in the cards I’ve been dealt.

there came a day amongst this all 

that no matter how hard i tried, id continue to fall…

this was for one reason and one reason alone…

i had no place to call my home…