"there is no god" 30 days of night

i dont know why but this darkness that i sit is finally making me feel worthless i cant look at myself for the face that i once had is no longer there i walk alone thru the woods the demons bow at my feet but why i am not worthy of such kindness i get to my castle i sit in my room curled up in the corner for i am the darkness its self i am afraid of the noises that my demons make when they are hungry for why am i scared there my demons they bow to me when i walk....i stand to face them they hide in the shadowes at my voice they tremble when they hear my footsteps the devil walks next to me but not as an advisor for he like many others is my slave he does what i say and does what i want he slaughters many for me for i do not know but what i have seen.....god laughs at me and the angels sing the praises of christ the one who gives and takes away life he took mine too early my soul can not rejoice for this hell that i am in is darker than anything i have known the light is afraid of me i am afraid of it i hate god for he has forsaken me like he said he wouldent he cast me out of his palm and onto the floor squished me and left me to die i twich at the thought of going back to the light that is why i no longer wait for it i hide from it if it came to find me i would hide in my castle alone in the corner where i feel protected in my dark room while the devil snikers at me from the other end of my life and god is charging up the hill but i send him away for the light has killed my life i wish to die sitting here in my corner where i belong...