I Do This for You

I am purely confused, I thought I am doing what she asked me to do. It just proves how useless I am to some people, the ones I want to help. The ones I care so much for, the only thing on my mind is to see them smile, even if it's not in my direction.

 

I did what you wanted me to do

I did it all for you

You ask me to lower my guard

To let you in my heart

Weary, but secretly I do this

I would do anything for you

I let you hold my heart

The first to touch porcelain

And for that I wonder

Why you tossed it in the garbage

And yet you still come to me

With problems, and life stress

My weakness, you

Instinct is yelling for me to help

So I try, for you

As you show me the one thing

I should have already known

I am useless, and my sacrifice means nothing

My offer of help, and even advice

Means nothing in your judging eyes

But I stay strong, and then ask

What do you want of me?

No reply, just judging eyes

My soul has little strength left

But I know what I can do

I can’t be your friend

Because of your words

As you give me an answer

There will never be anything between us

Nothing in common

I feel even more useless to you

And you judging eyes

The answer is clear

You want me to be silent

You want me to step away from you

And I even threw in lowering my head

Because of your presence

And because I still care

I do this for you

Yet I am the one you still judge

I thought this is what you wanted

But you say that it’s rude

I even lowered my head for you

But you tell me that I’m wrong

I even kept silent, not speaking to you

Only because you did not speak to me

I only spoke when spoken to

And I was for sure that is what you wanted

Now I am not sure

And emotions are strangling me

I am not sure what to do

 All I know is I am useless to you

Reviews

[Pointblank]

Not useless at all if she still comes back to use you as a sounding board. That my friend, is the most use any of us can be to another. As valuable as oil these days. Thats all us women want is to be heard and acknowledged not really probed and fixed. Give advice when asked only. Then remind them they asked. Isn't it nice to know she thinks of you when she needs an ear? The deepest part of our heart holds the people that listened.

[El Cu Cuy]

.......I"m so sorry man. You had to feel something that no one should ever have to feel. So...I guess you could feel what I've felt when I told you about that incident. Well......I think that you will be stronger after this. Very well thought out.

[Brianna Brie]

Your writings are very, very intense. The emotion is so well expressed that it makes it a cut above the rest. The honesty is refreshing. Don't you wish it was that easy to convey your feelings to her? I sure do. Thanks for sharing this enjoyable read.

[Freedom]

This is a very tragic but well-written and honest confrontation..I love the clarity of your words. I feel this poem, I definitely feel it. You write with such simplicity, but so much emotion comes across from it! I love the tone..the saddened, pained, tone..the one that lets the audience know that you've tried and tried and there's no more that you can do..and that hurts terribly.

There's nothing more painful than giving all of you to someone and knowing they want to give nothing in return. I can relate directly to this..my most recent ex-boyfriend was interested in me more for the excitement of having a significant other..but he had the most perverted image of what a relationship was. He wasn't interested in a connection between the two of us, but I was. I tried so hard to reach him, and in the end it didnt work out because he had basically told me that he didnt truly want me. That was so devastating..and then months after we broke up there was an incident one night that we happened to both be present at, and he ended up in tears, wanting nothing but my comfort. The next day he was back to normal..wanting generally nothing to do with me.

Youre not alone, my friend. Thanks for sharing.

[Emily B]

For every person like this in our lives there is one--waiting somewhere--that will treat our hearts tenderly with loving smiles.

[Suhcej]

Oh, it reminds me of something, similar situation in my life
I don't if I do, but I think I feel this poem with my soul and heart

[Angel Bird]

Perhaps you feel useless to one person, but there are more out there - waiting perhaps as you do ...

Here for sure you are not looked upon as useless, because to me, and I can only speak for myself, but I know there are others too to whom your pieces here are for the readers eyes like honey tastes to the mouth ...

Again a piece with a very depth that slowly but surely crept under my skin ... I think one should never bend one's head in defeat - never whoever the opponent. Sometimes one should simply take the bull by the horns and put one's finger in the center of the wound. After the first quake - maybe the so frantically held up mask may break to show the real face., but never forget that words can hurt worse than weapons ...

Emotion and thought provoking work. Remarkable piece! Kudos!