A Picture Worth A Thousand WordsA Poem by MacieLoganCreative writing project- Take a picture and draw a story from itAnnabelle It’s like looking in a mirror, Seeing my daughter In that little pink dress With her hair in a bun. Her toes painted red stuffed in those little pink shoes. I remember how my Feet Would cramp and blister as I flowed across the floor. Just as hers do now. We Were always so fluid, so in sync whenever we would move together. Like two swans on the water. Once beautiful and happy, now forced and painful. Her legs carry her swiftly, so elegant, quite unlike Mine. Charlotte It’s like looking in a mirror, Seeing my mother in the photos on our walls. We have two, side by side, almost identical. My Dress is a few shades darker, my hair pulled back a little tighter, but our form, it’s the same. Our Feet feeling the same pain I’m sure of it. We used to soak them in ice water together. Memories of us dancing together, Are some of my fondest. It was a bond no one could break, no one could take from us. It was ours. Not even my father (her husband) walking out on us would keep us from what we love. Our legs and our feet held us together, until Mama lost Hers. Annabelle I’m not sure who the accident hurt more, I mean sure I got hit by that truck. I lost my legs. I stayed in the hospital for three weeks. That was painful. But Charlotte… She saw it happen. She sat there with my for three weeks in and out of consciousness, all doped up. While I lay there in pain, feeling morphine course through my veins. Sleeping well at night, heavily medicated, drowned out reality, she sat there and watched. Seeing her mother like that. Knowing that her role model, her dance partner, would never put her two feet on the the floor in sync with her own again. I know that this constant throbbing, the ghostly limbs that I can feel but can’t see, this hurts me. But when I look at Charlotte, I believe it hurts her more. Charlotte It’s tough.. How can I go on with this alone? When we did it together we did it for us. We did it to keep us busy, sane, happy. Maybe that’s not what we need anymore. Or maybe it’s just not what I need anymore. What’s the point. Makes me wonder if I can ever dance again at all. How do you go on doing something without the other half of the pieces? It’s like drinking water out of a cup cut in two. Evenly, down the middle. It just doesn’t work. Annabelle Is it wrong.. for me to say I love it when she dances? She’s just so good at it, with or without me. She is so fluid and beautiful all on her own. I keep telling her if she dances for the talent scouts, the way she dances for me, there’s no way they’ll deny her. She could get a full paid tuition to Julliard, to do what she loves. I don’t know why she would even think twice about considering it. She needs to get out of this town. She needs to go out into the world and make her own life, she can’t get stuck here like I did, with a job as a volunteer dance teacher making little to no money. She has so much potential if only she would just see that and use it. I have given her the tools to do it on her own. To work hard, train hard, and do what she needs to do to get where she needs to be. I wish I had left when I had the chance. Of course if I had she wouldn’t be here, but maybe it all would have just been better off that way. I lost my chance though, it’s up to her now, I know I would leave if I could. Charlotte It’s not fair.
I don’t know what it is that I want to do anymore. If I continue, then I’m forcing it and hating every second of it, but if I quit it would kill my mother. I really don’t think I could stomach that but I just want to do something else. How I can tell how I feel? How can I take away from her the only thing that still makes her happy, the only thing that still makes her feel needed. I don’t want to hurt her, but I just can’t do it anymore. It’s like her getting her dancing feet taken away from her has made her push mine to their limits, even harder. All that does is make me want to quit even more. I just wish there was something we could still do together that didn’t consist of her just sitting there watching me, trying to coach me to perfection. I’m not sure exactly why she thinks I need to try even harder now, or why she’s been acting the way she has, but a lot more of her has changed than just her ability and her legs. I can’t read her mind, but I sure can tell our thoughts on this situation are totally different. Charlotte
I love her so much, I don’t want to hurt her, but I can’t live like this. Annabelle I just love her so much, I don’t want to see her get hurt, She can’t live like I did. © 2015 MacieLogan |
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