Let Go or Go NowhereA Poem by MacieLogan
This road seemed longer
than it usually did. The grip of her sweaty palms on the cold black steering wheel was tighter now than it usually was. Her mind was reeling with thoughts of her life how it was, how it now is. The man in the passenger seat did not look impressed. He could feel what she felt, he put that feeling in her. Why had this turned so sour? It was all out of fun. Wasn't it? Just the simple fact that he was there right next to her with that stupid look, that stupid face. She didn't dare say a word. If she did she knew it wouldn't end well. Or end period. They would talk about it forever. Just like they always did. Stuck on one trivial thought, for longer than what it felt to drive this road. She hit the power switch on the wheel for the radio. The man with the voice radiating enthusiasm booming and laughing through the speakers she scowled and hit the up arrow for the next station another advertisement this time one for a humane society the sad sappy music and sweet cunning voice asking for just a quarter a day She sighed and changed it again Now it was a song a country song one she knew well her mother liked this song her lips almost turned up before the man sat forward and switched it off her eyebrows drew down and together her finger tapped the wheel an exhalation of annoyance burned out of her throat He loved the feeling of this woman when she was angry like she was more beautiful when she was mad to know he meant enough to her to twist her to change her to make her feel Maybe it was too much this time But oh how he loved to drive her mad. Saying nothing at all seems to be more affective Why give her any more reason to yell. He would too. The more she thought about the words the ones they've said before She thinks about the words that could be spoken now It's too late to talk like that "You want the radio back on?" "Just leave it." You can only pretend to hate someone for so long before you finally do. The guilt was the worst. knowing he was addicted to hurting her knowing he loved to see her pain knowing just how to mend it for a few moments just to keep her hooked, just to make her stay. There was nothing he could say to her now without breaking her. At this point she can't even remember where they were going. the road just kept moving. the broken white lines fly by faster than they should. The water on the road reflected the the lights on the posts as they passed The sky was of fire but neither of them would notice their minds elsewhere There was no room anymore to see beauty in things She could see only the road and the wipers moving in and out of her vision her gaze directed straight ahead with each droplet that streamed down the glass in front of her brought her to an even darker place as if her tears were falling down around them He felt that too. She was too still. He knew there was a storm in her. She let him make it. He laid his head back and closed his eyes She let her foot get heavier on the accelerator This damn road needs to end He opened his eyes and glanced at her just in time to watch her let go. © 2014 MacieLogan |
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Added on October 29, 2014 Last Updated on October 31, 2014 Author
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