Happy Birthday

A poem...

I’m in a silent, wishful waiting

-for these thoughts to stop invading

 

Happy birthday to…

 

I’m tired of the singing,

-its just an incessant ringing

bringing nothing more than entreating

thoughts of you receding…

 

Happy-happy-happy birthday to you…

 

And these thoughts have me thinking,

-of popped champaigne I should be drinking,

But not to celebrate.

To drown away the hate.

It happens every year,

-I usually drown inside a beer,

Thinking of the reasons,

-I no longer have you here.

 

Thinking…

      thinking…

               thinking…

 

I’m ever slowly sinking.

 

I have another year I’ve lived,

-yes...one more year.

But it’s another I shouldn’t have,

-not without you here.

 

Happy birthday to you…happy birthday dear…

 

Don’t get me wrong,

-I mostly manage to make it.

And during the hardest times,

-I can usually fake it.

Form a smile,

-though its been a while

Since the smile’s been real.

I’m still seeking that something,

-to finally make me feel.

Happy birthday-happy birthday-happy birthday dear...

So this birthday will come and pass,

-and I can only hope, that at last,

This will be the year I find it.

The reason for the mountain,

And the reason to climb it.

These thoughts, they break inside my mind,

and I wonder if its more than I can handle.

Then I stare into the flame,

             and blow out the candles.

 

Happy birthday to you…[and many more!]

Author's Note

About a lot of the things going through my mind this day...

Reviews

[Southern Cross]

Birthdays aren't supposed to be sad. Or guilt laden so I'm popping the cork , grabbing a couple of glasses ( sorry it's a cheap bottle all I had) and CHEERS to life.. Love and every next breath HAPPY BIRTHDAY to youuuu ...*clink* and hand me the keys, I'm drivin.

[MachinaWriter]

lol thank you, that means a lot. Now, pour another glass lol

[Southern Cross]

Ha ha that's why I'm drivin

[MachinaWriter]

We need to get something to eat. Taco Bell sound good?

[MachinaWriter]

Since you're driving lol