She Kisses Me Softly

The tenth poem in my compilation, A Tragic Story...

So you think the world owes you

And you say "What am I supposed to do?"

When the world keeps hatin’

We all keep playin’

The same game, we all know its true

 

Call girls and drug slingers

Sunglasses and middle fingers

Cuz there’s no debatin’

We’re all just waitin’

For the vein to meet the cold stingers

 

And yes, she’ll kiss you softly

She won’t say that you’ve only bought me

And she’ll hide the pain

She’ll kiss your vein

Til you wake and say “she robbed me”

 

And you’re left with just a cold sweat

Your body’s toll, collecting the debt

But you’ll work a deal

You know you will

Every day cashing in the devil’s bet

 

That you’ll just keep going, until you drop

And while you hate the girl, you still bought

Her nightly company

Whispering “you want me”

Until the day you yell “just stop!”

 

You’re done with the endless cycle

Of drugs, alcohol and NyQuil

I’ll take the pain

She’ll leave this vein

There’s nothing left for her to steal.

Author's Note

This represents my mentality when I finally decided I'd had a enough. I wanted to change. It also glimpses at the feelings of withdrawals and the nature of addiction. I've posted this before, but here it is in the context of my compilation, A Tragic Story. After this one, all the poems will be new.

Reviews

[Southern Cross]

I cant remember the song or the rapper that sung it but this reminds me of that..It was long went on forever like a story...This should be put to music and played over and over and if anyone for one minute thinks they had a bad day..well..up the music on this one and give thanks because this isn't your story....Your strength is amazing and your talent superb.

[MachinaWriter]

Thank you. I was surprised you blew through it so quickly. I checked back on this site and suddenly I had a bunch of comments from you lol Thank you for that. I really appreciate it. It took a lot from me to put it out there and write it all down, but when I started, I couldn't stop. My fingers felt like they'd keep typing until they bled. I wrote it all in like a day or two. No sleep, no rest, just typing.

[Southern Cross]

I read a hell of alot go through 2 or 3 novels a week and I only read after 12 at night lol

[Southern Cross]

’ll take the pain
She’ll leave this vein
There’s nothing left for her to steal." ..profound !!!

[MachinaWriter]

Thank you. That line, I enjoyed, as well. Because a few stanzas before that I said "she'll hide the pain / she'll kiss your vein / til you wake and say she robbed me" so to me, that line represented a change. A breaking of the cycle.

[Southern Cross]

Oh it was R kelly's song made into a play Trapped In The Closet? and yes i did see the reference earlier in the poem that you mentioned

[MachinaWriter]

Oh yeah, that one lol Not a big fan of it. I thought it was kind of silly, but that's just me.

[Southern Cross]

Well when you're trapped in a car with 7 ppl going cross country and you want them all to shut up..the song can make them

[MachinaWriter]

true, true lol

[Hadewijch Lady of the N..]

it is quiet a story you tell here. I liked the emotion you bring into this poem. Another good poem you made. :)

[Kenaz]

Wow, what a story. I should like to know what happens after you had enough. For now though it is quite satisfying. Although it's not really a story but more of a human song. It's a shame the most interesting lives are the ones who have tortured souls.

[MachinaWriter]

Things didn't really get easier after this. I'm working on writing the next part, which will be called A Fallen Phoenix. It basically transcribes my life after I decide to get rid of the pills and the drinking and "rise from the ashes", unfortunately just to find myself burning inside my own flames.

[Kenaz]

damn, well I'll still be very interested.