The Motel Room

This is the eight poem in my compilation, A Tragic Story...

It’s scuttling

I watch it dart through the vines stitched into my cover

As I'm huddling

At the edge, just struggling

To contain my thoughts,

-but the bugs are infesting,

Crawling inside my brain and nesting

 

The room smells of damp sex, cigarette smoke

turned sour- stale beer stained into the carpet

a harvest of mold for the next year

Of unpaid roommates

Who scuttle between the plaster

Maybe I should talk to the old b*****d

Who charges forty-five a night for a room he claims is a master-

-bed

S**t, I doubt it’s even that

It looks like a twin, and I can see where the rat-

-chewed a hole through the wall

Its droppings the only sign, he'd been here at all

 

Lost in thought, the end of my cigarette's

burnt out, ashen from neglect

And I've still yet

To leave this room in time to get

Another pack

But my bottle's empty, and its nearly noon

So I'll need to be leaving soon

 

The wall rumbles

Releasing more roommates

Hidden in the walls

To seek escape

And I laugh at the girl's fake screams as she works to make the pay

S**t, she's doing better than me, so who am I to say

A word of judgment, anyway

 

I open the bottle and take another pill

Maybe when I get back she'll be still

If not, at least my bottle will be filled

And I can shut it out

-my mind finally killed.

Author's Note

In this addition to the story of my life, I've been stuck living in a lot of motel rooms, feeling completely hopeless about the world, uncaring about anything, but largely staying to myself. It gives a glimpse of the way I lived at this time. I've posted this poem before, in two versions, and this is the one that was edited with the help of Circe. Credits for the revision go to her. Let me know what you guys think ^^

Reviews

[Southern Cross]

This should all be made into a short book ..Its a page turner of despair and I sit here thinking how very talented you are

[MsBonn]

Another good poem!

[MachinaWriter]

Thank you once again ^^ I appreciate the comments and reviews.