ConcienceA Poem by MaceK6A cry of pain for relief from love.
But I freeze for a moment
And paranoia takes over What if I'm wrong What if I'm not justified I loved you didn't I What if I still care Maybe I miss you But f**k, I need to let go So I'll try again, to hate you away I've got to end this day My concience won't let me sleep It lays inside my prison heart and bleeds It knocks on iron bars And tries to deny my scars It screams your name, our love, our days But dead memories is all you are Burdened by plagues, burried so far Yet the sound is stalking The images still haunting Doubt consumes as I weaken again I feel my hate threatened and breaking Maybe I miss you I loved you, blindly did You said you loved You said you cared I held out my hand and you f*****g stared You're through with me, throw me away Resent my heaven, you were born to betray Well who told you I wasn't sick and tired You gave me s**t but I aspired You were so weak I held you up And loved you beyond any desire All because I cared Now I hurt because I cared Didn't take too long for me to realize You had always meant to traumatize As if it all wasn't enough To leave me to rot, to endure your sloth Now I have to picture you with him Suffer the nightmares and the rhythem Of your voice and his, all the words said Forgive me if I wish you both dead Not leaving out the fact, he was my best friend I weaken at the thought of your deceptions Such obscene indescretions You're as low as you can get When your proud wretched self won't even regret Thoughts now devour my mind And my chemistry starts to unwind Pain invades every corner of my heart Everything I cherich was ripped apart Inconceivable disaster, can't help but obsess Nausea anxiety hysteria distress Stronger they grow, and faster I fall No breath for even a muted call No one to care, to miss me and wonder No one around to watch me plunder I grow so unstable, with a raging mind I hurt and ache as my wounds open wide That's when hate reaches climax When I stop to defend you My concience cracks I feel you burn deep inside I will not abide You will not reside Screams start to come out I kick I punch I shout I cast you out, I spit you out This will be the last time you f**k me over I will go sober Your addiction will fade but hate will remain For I will never forget all the scortching pain You did this to me You made me do this Although I will remember your smile And those words of love for a while Despite the memories intombed underground I feel their ghost linger around Although my concience will rise again No matter where or when Hate will light my eyes And I'll look inside to see its cries I'll burn it down, I'll burn you down Again, the memories drown Again, you turn to ash Again, my insides crash Maybe a tear will lurk in my eye But unforgiven, I watch you die Again.. Forgive me bleeding concience I'm a bit far from innocence © 2010 MaceK6Author's Note
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Added on May 30, 2010 Last Updated on May 30, 2010 AuthorMaceK6Toronto, Scarborough, CanadaAboutWell, I'm a 17 year old Muslim kid who LOVES Metal music- so you can see the paradox I live through. I'm open minded, and I don't often follow anyone, but make my own philosophies which I like to writ.. more..Writing
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