Best I've Ever Had

Memories of us play like a movie. The secrets we shared, all those moments we had together. That one road trip, where I hung my feet out the window and would fall asleep to us singing crappy pop music. The times I would drive and you would scream at me to not go so fast. That week that all we did was go on dates to different places, the picnic in the art park that I tried too hard to prepare for. Our trip to the beach that we never made it to, five hours in the car with my family and no words from me, thats when you realized thats how alike we really were. The time we went to the movies and you mad a mess all over and we ran out as soon as it came to an end. All those times you would complain that I paid more attention to my phone than I did to you. Your silly jokes, the ones that were so stupid but made me laugh anyway. The first time I did “stuff” with you, in the school hallway. The first time we went all the way. All the times we hung out in the gym with the boys after school. Bowling. Shatto. Your moms job. That cute little boba place in Korea town. Your old neighborhood. The post office and olympic burger. I desperately crave the stories you told me that would place in a silent 9 hour bliss. I miss you and I wish that I could live it all again. Im tired of the memories. All I want is you. You know that I failed algebra and that I love Helter Skelter. You know that I hate hipsters and cry when I get stressed out. You know that my favorite movie is 13 Going on 30. You know that I still love you. You dont know how broken I am. How can I move on when you’re the best I’ve ever had?