LingeringA Poem by Marianne RoseThoughts of being with the dying, in the moments when they have not yet made peace with themselves, and face a dark night as potent as the dark night of the soul.
When the hand of the dark night
Thrusts itself into your heart, Twists and pulls something out Like psychic surgery, You know you have descended. I've walked with you there, Entered the nightmare And followed you, Moving toward a freshly dug grave. I went with you for two reasons- Because I could And because I had been there before. Your body an empty shell On the hospital bed Vacant to all appearance, Your essence descending beyond What most people can sense. I've been there with you, In the last moments Cancer Trauma Old age Bizarre fatal events Whatever your body battled As machines kept up a semblance of life, The journey to the underworld was the same. You fought Or wandered aimlessly confused Looked for a light that was not there Saw mirrors of your life instead, taunting you Always the wrenching pain of a heart that would not give up beating Resounding like echoes in a cavern some distance away The dark night comes when we are awake But the quality of its visit is different, A portent of the final days for some, A resolution and a promise not to return for others. Different images appear for you who linger A boat to take you away, forbidding with its pirate crew, casket prepared for your passage. A fire consuming everything around you, Closing you into one small circle of air. An empty white room, no doors or windows to escape. The shadows of the men you killed, Gunfire in the background, There and gone and there again, Fiercely hunting you. I stand beside you, watching. You do whatever you must to shake free Of the vestiges of your fears and memories. There is no tunnel of light or friendly faces to greet you, Only the lifelike projections of your past, Your remorse, rage, bitterness, terror. Sometimes you linger long and hard. Sometimes you work quickly to overcome So you can rise from the underworld, Take possession of your body again, And shed a final tear of goodbye. I will sit beside your body and console the ones who care, But my spirit will be split between here and where you are. It does not matter how long it takes, 6 hours, Days or weeks I will not leave you once by your side. And when you have settled your business there, I will rejoice, exhausted, but full of your peace. So when I tell others I want no regrets, I seek peace before that time, I intend to leave no harm unforgiven, It is because I hope the dark night will pass me by And offer a deathbed reprieve That I may ascend willingly And free. © 2016 Marianne Rose
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Added on July 2, 2016Last Updated on July 3, 2016 Tags: Death, dying, dark night, nightmares AuthorMarianne RoseSanta Rosa, CAAboutRecently retired from a Community College as an Employment Advisor and Program Developer - such inspiring, hopeful work. The dreams and hopes born out of loss and confusion stimulate the writer in me... more..Writing
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