Broken

Circa 2004

As tears stream down my cheeks

I  cannot say why

My thoughts swirl in mass confusion

I cannot think why

I think of you and I cry

I think of you and I smile

I think of you and I want to die

I think of you and I want to last awhile

My brain is all a mess

I can't keep up

If only I knew what to confess

I can't speak up

I dream of him and I lie

I dream of him and I hope

I dream of him and I want to die

I dream of him and I look for the rope

My heart is divided

Broken pieces here

My brain is double-sided

Broken thesis here

I evaluate myself and see what's wrong

I evaluate myself and don't like the result

I evaluate myself and take way too long

I evaluate myself and know it's all my fault